Post bail November, 2015

Dear Mom.

I love you. You brought me into this world, gave me everything I ever needed and most of what I wanted for years. I’ve abused and manipulated your kindness and love. I never did treatment, I wasted your money. I tried to steal from you. I’m just a lech on everyone. I have been nice and kind and loving like you but, it was an act to get what I want.I am right where I need to be and will be for years.I don’t want to fight anymore….I’m not going to get what I want and that is a lesson I need to learn, you don’t always get what you want.I wanted you to post bail, I was really ready for change..I will not fight anymore, I will sit in prison and do nothing.I want to blame the police, the bullying and PTSD but, they only play a small role. At the end of the day we make our own beds, our own luck, and I will try and be the best man I can be.I want to be like you, successive (sic), loving, hardworking and have a true purpose.

THANK YOU for being my role model and my friend.

Your son, Sean

(Excerpts from a letter from Sean, I edited out some more personal pieces from the letter, I don’t think he would want them published. I am very sad reading this, how down on himself he was. He was worn out and tired, angry at himself. He had recently broken into our home and threatened his brother and myself. I doubt he would have really hurt us. He picked up his belongs and moved into a friends. Unfortunately, the friend was admitted to the hospital for psychiatric reasons and the young man’s family not knowing Sean had permission to stay at his place, called the police for trespassing. We didn’t post bail and Sean stayed in jail until he could get to treatment a month or so later. My most significant regrets involve not working harder to get better psychiatric treatment and less jail time. Our family was just completely worn out)

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I recently returned from Vieques, Puerto Rico. I have had the blessing of being able to travel there for a week every year, a vacation with my sister, Dawn, sometimes with my niece and/or Mom. We have been heading there for the last 10 years. A treasure, as travel had been a challenge with Sean’s illness, my husband staying home so I could get away for a short time.

It is a beautiful place, lovely beaches, horses roaming free, it is as if time stood still for a few years or decades.

I thought Sean would love it here. Relaxed and carefree, I suspect he could have gotten along pretty well, at least for a while. The geographic cure can work, sometimes for a week, sometimes for years. Usually, though life and it’s complications catch up.

I once worked with a physician in New York, who after struggling with personal issues, made it to Vieques. He tended bar and made a new beginning. Life caught up with him there as well, his adventures now the subject of a book (autobiography)

One morning, our little gang (Mom, Dawn, niece and I) arrived at a remote beach. You have to travel a pretty challenging road, with a four- wheel drive to get to Navio beach. It is one of our favorites. An exposed beach, plenty of surf and caves to explore. One time, we met a young man, doing yoga on the beach. His beat- up van was nearby, likely his camp for the night. He was getting ready for the day, yoga and a swim. He had long hair, no clothing on, and seemed very relaxed and happy. My Mom said, “Wow, he is a great swimmer”.  My sister and I looked at each other, smiled and thought “Sean”.

I didn’t want to bring Sean to Vieques, I thought he would be lost forever. A vagabond for good. I knew the medical facilities weren’t great, especially the mental health care. Sean spoke some Spanish, maybe enough to get around, I don’t know.

The idea of him being lost was terrifying. It was something I worked through in therapy, I could cope with him being out of contact with our family, if I knew he was well. I knew some people with substance use and mental health struggles needed to be away from their family of origin to become well.  A chance to find a chosen family.  It certainly was preferable to an overdose death.

So Sean lives on, in our hearts and minds, and in some, their real-life organs (his heart, liver and kidneys). A vagabond forever.


Rehab story now in Spanish, click the link below.

Vox story

Appreciate the translation of the Vox story into Spanish. Sean was close to many whose first language is Spanish. Friends from high school, friends in the Bronx..

Sean’s trip to Chile, after high school graduation. Sean befriended Victor and Christian when they were working here in Vermont as students. Sean saved for and paid for the trip on his own. He was graciously hosted by his friend’s families. Here are a few photos from the trip.

Criminal Justice or is it?

So often, the frustration of dealing with the courts remains my biggest regret.

We tried to get charges we had filed (mistaking the charge we thought we weren’t filing for a more serious one actually ..)

I wrote, with no success to explain the situation. My pleas fell on deaf ears.

In the end, as one of Sean’s friends said ” I could never understand what that kid was in jail for..”

State’s Attorney Office

32 Cherry St.

Burlington, VT 05401

October 18, 2015

Justin Jiron, Esq.:

In November of 2014 I made a request to Edward Sutton Esq, stating that I would like to drop charges in the two alleged burglary incidents at my home on August 17th and 18th. These charges are against my son Sean Blake. I would like to reiterate that is still my opinion nearly one year later.

As I mentioned in my previous letter, I was frustrated with Sean’s coming into our home. He didn’t think I was home and intended to retrieve some personal items. I was home with my younger son, my husband was teaching away for the semester. I was worried he was going to steal from us. I asked the police to press charges, as I thought I was enforcing a no-trespass order. Unfortunately, that order had not yet been served. I did not intend to press charges for burglary. I thought he might get a warning or minor offense ticket.

After reviewing all of Sean’s charges, I would like to reiterate my request to drop all charges related to those incidents on August 17 and 18.

I feel strongly that Sean needs more treatment and less incarceration. In jail he has not received the treatment he needs to recover fully.

I have confidence in Sean’s ability to improve and become a productive member of society. I think this is more likely to occur if he receives treatment.

I hope Sean can continue treatment as part of sentencing for his offenses.


Kimberly D. Blake

Incarceration, where is the “care”?

Some of the most difficult memories are those of jail, incarceration was a constant threat for Sean, whether in the Navy, during a relapse or even in his home state of  Vermont.

As I write this I keep misspelling incarceration, I keep trying to put “care” in there. No, there isn’t “care” in incarceration…

This is one of Sean’s first letters from Riker’s island. His life was saved here, an abscess in his ankle was treated. At the time of his arrest, he could barely walk. He was caught stealing soap and toothpaste from a Walgreen’s in midtown. He couldn’t run due to the condition of his leg. Sadly, instead of being sent to a hospital, he was sent to jail. Detoxing on the cold floor of the Manhattan holding center. When he got to Riker’s he did receive methadone and treatment for his abscess. I just have to wonder if, life might have been better if he was able to go to a hospital and treatment instead. As a family, we tried to get him to treatment, however, the DA would only allow transfer to a six month 50,000.00 facility, which we couldn’t afford…

July  from Riker’s Island

Hey Mom:

Well, this sucks a little bit. I don’t understand why this happened yet. Maybe, I’m not supposed to but, after I do my time, will get most of the Fall to hike together and get ready for ski season. Train with Ned, find a job, start contributing a paycheck to my family, rather than stealing your time, love and money.

Maybe, I can learn to give a little bit.

I’m going to miss you. I hope my cases in the Bronx hold a lighter sentence. If all goes well, I will be ready for detox in 50 days. I am going to try to get off the methadone. I only got it to make the hell of jail a little easier.

Whatever happens I know will have Christmas together. Somehow, I just know. We might miss Five Guys day, if I get more time but, I’d like to go to lunch with you on October22nd. I’ll put it in my DAY PLANNER.

After, I make a DAYPLANNER, something to count down the days.

I’m sorry I’m putting you through this. I’m sorry for everything right now.

Love, Seanner T

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Recovery Advocacy Project


From Recovery Advocacy Project:


You have been selected as a volunteer State Lead of the Recovery Advocacy Project (RAP)! Many states have a team of Leads and we will be sure to introduce you to your other State Leads in separate communications.

We are in a very exciting time in the recovery advocacy movement and are encouraged that you will be an integral part of that.

The application process was very competitive and we are happy to be working with you moving forward to build a foundation to support recovery grassroots advocates all across the country. We are confident in your ability and we will be providing ongoing trainings to you to instill a Leaderful Recovery Movement that is working cohesively to think and act locally towards community and legislative solutions. “

I am grateful to have this opportunity, meeting many of the other participants at Mobilize recovery was so inspiring.  I don’t have much experience but, I am so grateful for the calls and emails of support from people with experience, reaching out, wanting to help. So, Vermont, we will get ready for our next steps, people in recovery and people who love them, families of loss, concerned professionals we will all need to work together to obtain recognition and respect.


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Thank you:  Kim Blake

Time for a change.. MAT in corrections.. SAMHSA blog post

For persons with an opioid use disorder who are in the criminal justice system, the process of transitioning from jail or prison back to the community can be overwhelming. Within three months of release from custody, 75 percent of people who were in prison or jail with an opioid use disorder experience a relapse to opioid use. It is also alarming that incarcerated persons who are released to the community are between 10 and 40 times more likely to die of an opioid overdose than the general American population—especially within a few weeks after reentering society. As we observe March as National Criminal Justice Month, I’d like to call attention to SAMHSA resources and grant programs that are tackling this issue head-on.

As a society, we face the difficult challenge of preventing people with opioid use disorder reentering the community from relapsing and overdosing on opioids. However, it is possible through the use of medication-assisted treatment within the fabric of the criminal justice system. Medication-assisted treatment (MAT) is an evidence-based treatment for opioid use disorder that uses FDA-approved pharmacotherapy in combination with counseling and behavioral therapies to treat substance use disorders. Jails and prisons have been slow to offer this form of treatment, despite the overwhelming evidence of the effectiveness of MAT. However, in reaction to the current opioid epidemic, the criminal justice system is increasingly considering the use of MAT in drug courts, incarceration, reentry, and community corrections.  

For the past decade, SAMHSA has supported MAT and other forms of treatment for mental and substance use disorders, and trauma-related issues for people involved in the criminal justice system through discretionary grants, programs and resources. SAMHSA recently published two new guides, “Medication-Assisted Treatment in the Criminal Justice System: Brief Guidance to States” and “Principles of Community-based Behavioral Health Services for Justice-involved Individuals: A Research-based Guide.”

The SAMHSA brief, “Medication-Assisted Treatment in the Criminal Justice System: Brief Guidance to the States provides guidance to state governments on increasing the availability of MAT in criminal justice settings. By including the criminal justice system as a path to treatment, states may see an increase in access to and maintenance in treatment, and lower rates of overdoses, re-offending, and re-incarcerations. In this brief, states are provided an overview of the issue, the challenges to incorporating MAT, key considerations for establishing MAT in criminal justice settings, and existing standards and guidelines.

SAMHSA’s “Principles of Community-based Behavioral Health Services for Justice-involved Individuals:  A Research-based Guide” aims to assist community-based providers in their clinical and case management practice with the justice-involved population.  Intended for direct service providers, agency leaders and program developers, the principles articulated in this guide provide a foundation for achieving a quality, community-based behavioral health treatment system that is responsive to this population.  Eight key principles – reached by consensus – are described, followed by frequently asked questions, a table of evidence-based practices for substance use treatment for justice-involved individuals, and key resource materials. 

During fiscal year 2019, SAMHSA also funded 43 adult drug court grants, 12 family drug court grants and two reentry program grants and encouraged these programs to utilize MAT, as appropriate, with their program participants.  

It is always encouraging to hear personal success stories from SAMHSA grantees. Such an example was provided by a Project Director of a SAMHSA-funded drug court in Arizona. She recently shared the story of Patrick, one of her program graduates, who is now successfully working as a recovery support specialist for their MAT service provider. Patrick described his early struggles with anxiety and depression, becoming addicted to prescription drugs and later, heroin.  His addiction led him to several stays in jail and ultimately was sentenced to state prison. After release and new charges, Patrick was eligible for, entered and graduated from a drug court program. He offered that the source of his success was being able to participate in substance use treatment, and addressing his mental health issues through intensive counseling, job training, and receipt of MAT, which Patrick says “allowed the obsession for heroin to be lifted from the nooks-and crannies of my mind, heart, and soul.”

Treatment works and recovery from opioid use disorder is possible. If you or someone you know is looking for an opioid treatment program, visit